Four Five Sixteen

I feel very moody today and on top of that I'm completely broke. I have seven dollars and fifty-two cents in my bank. I'm honestly very disappointed in myself as this is a result of reckless spending. I feel like that's all that I am sometimes, reckless. I finally woke up today in a decent mood but as the day progressed I became more and more agitated. The days alternate between anger and depression. I even wonder now if xxyz and I can even live together. If theres a will theres a way but the fact that I've never lived on my own worries me. I worry that us living together will eventually lead me to grow tired of him. Why am I like this? It's like I really want to be the one but never will be but it's myself that's in the way. At the same time I honestly think that my hormones just don't give me a fucking break and thats the real cause of all of this. When will they mellow out? I literally feel like I'm going crazy sometimes with all the emotions I experience.