Less, Much Less

I just have it in my mind right now that it I get a dog all my problems will go away. I can put my time into something more constructive and then I'll be happier. I'll also be less lonely, at least that's what I hope for. I've been talking to Zarni and we are kind of back together? We are "easing back into it" whatever the fuck that means. I'm kind of giving up on the 38th idea. I really just can't handle how different things are. I feel so isolated and alone that I've gone back to plan 37. Not my best plan by any means...probably my most reckless plan at that. Not only that but plan kb2 is turning out to be horrible. Another bad decision on my part that I should've put more thought into. I'm throwing that plan out completely because there's just nothing in it for me. Plan kb1 is okay as far as I know but I think I will just leave it as is and not complicate it with further details. I was really hoping the 38th idea would keep me motivated but if anything it's just depressed me. I have very little else to say about these matters right now.