But I Can't Let Go

It's weird to not see you on my newsfeed. I have no idea what you're up to or what you're thinking about. I really, really miss you. You didn't try to contact me at all after we talked this morning. I wasn't expecting that, at least not so soon. I still have your shirt and I'm still wearing it to bed. I wish it smelled like you but I've already cried a few times today so maybe I can't handle it. I have less a desire to eat than I did before. You've been on my mind all day. Could I take this all back and say I'd try again? Would you have it? Maybe we could work it out. Why am I so stuck on you? I'm really inlove with you, I've fallen really hard and I'm trying to fight it. I know what can happen when I care more for someone else to push aside my own dreams. I'm scared of the commitment that will ensue and I've pushed you away completely. I've tried to find fault in you and your ways to have a reason to leave. I'm scared and I'm full of doubt. I really do miss you though and I'm sorry you didn't know how much you mean to me. I know that for some reason, things that I normally have no interest in spark my interest if it could be with you. What happened to me when I met you? I have no idea but here I am, the one that put an end to it, but I'm here unable to sleep and tearing up at the thought of you at 4 in the morning.