Heartbeat

My heart was beating pretty fast just now and I had a minor breakdown. It came from nowhere but it was muted. I couldn't feel all that it was because I simple cannot feel anything. I'm scared as to what this might mean. It crept up on me and took me in and now here I am. Am I someone different now? I may have lost myself. I thought I was becoming myself again but this feeling has made me question it all. I might be dead and I haven't realized it yet. I feel so tired...and maybe it's that I'm so exhausted that I can't cope with feeling any emotions right now. I feel nothing but the occasional nausea. In fact it feels as if I might throw up. I feel so lost right now. What's happening to me?